THE NEW ME; WHO IS SHE?

Getting to know who I want to be

I want to be strong and confident. I will not apologize for being me and for being strong.
I went training with persons who are training for a Marathon on a ridiculously long stretch of hill. And I led the pack. There were times when I wondered as a newbie if i should hang back and let them lead but I'm not a slow runner and I said why should I.

There have been times on my journey to fitness where I have been frustrated and thinking I should be less than I am but I refuse to live a lie. I have lived a lie most of my life hiding from who I am and the strength and power that I'm discovering have always been me but too afraid to shine

Weight training has taught me to be strong physically and it allows me to acknowledge my strength as an individual. Whenever I train and persons see me for the first time they are taken aback because I'm an anomaly. I train hard because I want results and I love pushing and competing against me against who I thought I was and how much I thought I can lift and actually lifting and doing so much more.

It makes me feel awesome when guys see me train cause I know there are some of them that I lift more than okay confession time I compete against guys too. I know it is unrealistic but it keeps me pushing to be better and stronger.

okay let's try to put this blog into perspective as to why i started it just had to get the jumble of thoughts out.

I have come an extremely far way in terms of where I was and fitness and confidence. I am learning to allow my light to shine no matter what and that it is not about what people think. This blog is about executing the things I want to do and stop dreaming about them and talking and thinking about them. I've always wanted to start a blog so no more wanting it is time to do.

There have been alot of things that I have made decisive action in this week since the sit down with my Mentor and acknowledging that yes I have lost weight and come very far but the old me is still present and I have no idea who the new person I have brought out is so I am going through the qualities of the NEW ME and what I like and how I want her to be.

Number one the NEW ME executes. That is how I have gotten this far. it wasn't by indecision and thinking how it can be done and the different ways it was by doing what my Mentor told me to do it was by showing up even when I didn't want to.

So I am taking that into real life and not just for weight loss and fitness. There are unpleasant exercises that I really don't want to do but they work the areas I want to work so I do them. Just as in life there are unpleasant circumstances that I don't want to deal with but if I want results I have to deal with it so regardless of how the other person or persons will feel I do what needs to be done and deal with the sore buns or hurt feelings after.